so, what happened after i left?

It's been almost a year since i've left california for bootcamp on february 16th and my life has kind of come around full circle. I'm back at my parents house on the weekends and I am stationed at Beale. I kiss the ground at my feet to be back in California and it feels good to be back home. But I guess the difference is, home doesn't change, but you do. I'm not the same person I left California as. I can feel it in the way I carry myself, I can feel it in the way I act around other people, I can feel it in the way I wake up in the morning. I am still the silly, odd fun person, but there is a certain seriousness and gravity that I feel. I feel like no matter what I do I have to be better, to get better and to be stronger. Maybe this was the drive that I lost in the endless studies of college. I had lost all practicality in my search of purpose. The feeling of insecurity in the next step has been lightened because for the next six years of my life it will be chosen for me. I am not sure on whether all the changes the military has made on me have been good or bad, but in actuality they are all made within a forward trajectory; thus they can't be all that bad.